Atonement.

I feel like if I don't make cordial amends with my ex, we may never get to that point. People say that time is the best thing for it right now, and I know that's got to be true, but at the same time I'm so frightened that if we don't at least try to talk, we'll go our separate ways and never find each other again. Someone who meant the world to you should still be a part of that world in some way, even if they can't be the entire thing anymore.

"How we must atone, before we turn to stone..." - Ingrid Michaelson

I do also believe the saying that if you love something you should let it go and if it comes back to you it's yours, if it doesn't it never was. So I guess for now, I am going to have to let go of Scott once and for all, like letting go of a balloon and watching it float quickly out of my grasp. Though unlike a balloon, there is a chance he could come back. It may not be now, but maybe eventually things will be different and he'll once again want a relationship. I'm not going to expect it, and I am not going to focus on it. I am going to watch it fade into the great open skies until I can't see it anymore and it's gone. Everything happens for a reason. I just have this feeling somewhere inside of me that this isn't the end of my story with Scott. I believe there is more to come, even if it can't be continued right now.


"The only way to really know, is to really let it go." - Ingrid Michaelson