Conflictions.

Life can be so confusing at times... and even the use of prayer doesn't always get you out of that hole. I finally opened my heart back up and let a new boy in... only for him to no longer have those feelings towards me. He said God told him that his purpose in my life is to be my friend... the final push towards God. And he was. How can I argue with something like that... with a higher power? The only thing I don't understand is why I was being led towards him over and over while he was being led away. I keep telling myself everything happens for a reason and if it's meant to work out someday than it will. But the feelings for him have gotten worse, and we keep changing... barely texting throughout the day, slight awkwardness when we hang out...

I feel so conflicted lately not only with how I feel about him when I know that I shouldn't, but also with the situation I am in. I try to accept it, but I can't. My heart yearns for him, when I

know that it shouldn't. I am stuck in the same familiar feeling of a relationship ending, though ours never even got to be.

I know I just have to keep pressing in with my faith and pursuing God, for everything He does is for the good of us. I'm not sure why the feelings for Blake have gotten deeper instead of shallower as I have been praying for, but I know in time everything will work out how it should. Prayer would be greatly appreciated for me to help get me through this.

"And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him." - Romans 8:28