Walking Down This Road Alone.

It's been three months now, and I am still wandering down my path of life alone. I am no better now than I was when Scott first left, though I'm not worse either. I feel like I need to get some sort of closure in order to start feeling better, but I am too afraid to ask for it. There's not much else that I have left to lose at this point, but I don't want to ruin the progress we've been making when it comes to occasionally talking at work. Do I risk it and ask? Or do I sit here suffering in silence? I don't even know what I would say if the opportunity arose for me to get to talk to him about everything. I know that once you close the door it will never be the way it was before... so I've already lost. Why is it that love is both the most amazing feeling in the world and the worst when you lose it? But if I had to choose between love and losing, and to never have known that amazing feeling, I still will side with love. This suffering is such an unbearable hurting, and my heart goes out tonight to all the millions of other hearts aching for someone they lost... I feel almost at peace knowing I am not on my own in this, though I am walking down this road alone.

"I'm walking down this road alone, and I figured all I'm thinking about is you, is you my love. My head is in a cloud of rain and the world it seems so far away, and I'm just waiting to fall in droplets and sink into your skin." - Jason Reeves ("Droplets")

Connected Souls & Lifted Voices.

I am a dreamer... I see the world not only for what it is, but for what it could be. I believe love is one of the greatest things we can come to know on earth. In my heart there is the greatest faith that everything will turn out alright in the end. I live my life everyday thankful for everything I have and the beauty around me. This world is an amazing place. Sometimes you just have to look a little deeper than the ugly illusion on the surface to see the beauty that's really there. I'm not afraid to be alive. These days so many people are. I sing because it's a connection. When we gather to listen to music all of our souls grab hands, and lift their voices up together. We become one. And there is no better feeling in the world..."The children outside all are laughing under perfect skies, The shapes and patterns in this season make me feel alive, I wanna shout it from the roof top and tell the world that, “I was blind but now I see what’s right in front of me...”, It’s a beautiful world I see, everything looks differently, It’s a beautiful world I see, these moments are changing me, When I look at the sky I see the reason why I know... When I look out from the window, The moon and stars shine all their lights down from the heavens, I choir of angels strike a chord and lift their voices , And then we sing out,“I’ve been lost but now I’ve found what’s right in front of me...”" - Tim Myers ("Beautiful World")